Here’s what Sam knows. There was a party. There was a fight. The next morning, Sam’s best friend, Hayden, was dead. All he left Sam was a playlist – and a note, saying that he took his own life. But what Sam doesn’t know is: WHY?
To figure out what happened. Sam has to rely on the playlist and his own memory. But the more he listens, the more he realizes that his memory isn’t as reliable as he thought. Especially when someone claiming to be Hayden starts sending him cryptic messages, and a series of violent attacks begins on the bullies who made Hayden’s life hell. Sam knows he has to face up to what happened the night Hayden killed himself. But it’s only by taking out his earbuds and opening his eyes to the people around him – including an eccentric, unpredictable girl who’s got secrets, too – that Sam will finally be able to piece together his best friend’s story. And maybe have a chance to change his own.
Another story of suicide and coping up with those people who were left behind. This book reminded me of The last time we say goodbye by Cynthia Hand.
Sam’s best friend Hayden committed suicide; Hayden was the only real friend that Sam had for years, and it was really hard on his part.
This story is narrated by Sam. He gives us an idea as to how his life is after his best friend’s death. He was in pain (of course), but at the same time he felt anger. He felt anger towards Hayden who was not able to explain why he ended his life and anger to the people who might be a reason why Hayden felt miserable that triggered him to commit suicide.
Sam meets this girl named Astrid – and was basically his companion in moving on with his life.
He found a playlist left by Hayden with a note saying For Sam – Listen and you’ll understand….
After Hayden’s death, there are a lot of things that can’t be explained. Sam is seeing things that are impossible (hallucinations – I believe). Someone was pretending to be Hayden – using Hayden’s username in a game and sending messages to Sam. And unexpected things are happening with the people who made Hayden’s life miserable.
SPOILER!!!!!! ——- In the end, he found out that Astrid has something to do with all of what happened.
Sam decided to start moving on, he regularly meets a therapist and it was helping him. He opens up more to his family, he plans to focus on academics and getting into a good school. Slowly he tried reaching out to his other friends. He was not able to forgive Astrid – not yet, but was open to the possibility that someday he will…
The playlist… It really did not solve anything. Sam decided to retire Hayden’s playlist and started to listen to other music. The playlist might not have solve anything but it taught Sam to actually start talking to people.
Was it a great story? — Nah.
Was it a good story? – nah.
It was okay. There was nothing special about it. Although I have to admit that I found my curiosity increasing every chapter — but there is still a part of me that believes that what was happening was Sam’s hallucinations (some of it really was).
Loneliness is a thing that has weight, and it gets heavier over time…